Guess we all have flaws and insecurities and we clearly are afraid when it comes to either being bullied or being pin-pointed. I have this thing called TTM or TRCIH also known as HAIR PULLING DISORDER and knowingly or unknowingly I pull out hair from my scalp,which pretty much causes bald spots and I have them. It began during the winter of 2018, I was attending my tuition when my friend passed on a comment saying “yahan logo ke baal jhad rahe hai, aur tu apne baal khud nikal rahi hai.” I honestly had no idea on when I precisely began to pull out my hair,but it’s really awful to have such a thing.

What is TRICH?

It’s a part of OCD/ICD – obsessive compulsive disorder/impulse control disorder. It’s a way I get rid off my stress and the thoughts, For example if I have an exam going on and I’m a bit delayed I start pulling out my hair.Another instance is when I have an argument or think too much about something or the argument that happened, I either go through an anxiety attack or just reduce my stress by pulling out my hair.

What are the repercussions?

For me since it’s the hair on my scalp, and I have bald spots and my scalp bleeds at times and ofcourse I pull a lot and I consume the follicles which is another drawback ( I know it sounds really disgusting but it is what it is) And to what I’ve researched,consuming follicles can have the following outcomes : CAN CAUSE ULCERS; FATALLY BLOCKING THE INTESTINAL TRACT LEADING TO LOSS OF HUNGER AND FATIGUE.

Well ofc getting therapy sounds easy but it indeed is not easy things from the past buckle up and ruin the set up; I get disgusted every morning when I check my hair growth and look at the blank spots. Indeed my dad does provoke me from pulling my hair but that doesn’t really help. In a household where u can’t vent or cry out loud , mental issues tend to happen and that’s how I see it . While typing this down I’m still anxious, my legs are shaking, fingers are trembling.This feeling is really annoying. There are nights where I go through an attack and these attacks last for almost thirty minutes or up to an hour and I tend to have a horrible night there after. We can’t really do anything about trichotillomania. It’s just stuck with you, can last long with you forever, you just have to accept the reality and need to live and love the mental disorder 💓

THIS BLOG WAS JUST TO MAKE PEOPLE AWARE ABOUT TRICHOTILLOMANIA AND THAT FLAWS AND INSECURITIES ARE A PART OF LIFE. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND ARE LOVED LET PEOPLE TALK, ACCEPT AND LOVE YOURSELF